*Sigh*

Today.. no title. I don't even know how to sum up what I feel right now.

Well, on second thought, yes I do. Shit. That's how I am feeling today.

About a year ago, Paul and I ran into some hard times and found ourselves getting a "Cash Advance" from a local payday place. They have been good to us, and it kept our electric from getting shut off at the time. The downfall however is that we are living paycheck to paycheck and haven't been able to pull ourselves away from them yet. We plan to use income tax this year to do just that. But unfortunately Paul's work schedule this week (he worked on Friday) threw us off. On Thursday we went and paid them back, and normally Friday would have been the day we went and borrowed the money again. But since he was working, we planned to go Saturday. As normal, we paid our bills with checks, and thought everything was okay. Saturday, we laid around the house. All day. Yes. We forgot to go borrow the money again. And yes. It was a holiday weekend. Closed on Sunday, closed on Monday, Paul worked a double.. not home till Wednesday. Checks? Bounced. Overdrawn. Can't catch a break. Blah.

And of course, because we are living paycheck to paycheck, we had no extra money in the bank. So I had to borrow money from my younger sister to cover the overdraft fees, so the checks would go through on Wednesday after we got all the money in bank. I felt like shit for even having to ask my sister. I'm 25 years old, a mother, a wife. I should have my shit together. But nooooo.. I don't. And what's worse? Today!

When my sister dropped the money off to me to borrow she asked me if her car sounded normal. I told her it sounded to me like she needed some oil but to bring it by today and Paul would check it out for her. I tell you no lie.. Paul pulled the oil dipstick out and the dipstick sleeve came right out with it. And no. It wouldn't just go back on. It was broken. He spent 4 1/2 hours trying to fix this thing for her, and in the process we found a huge slice in her front tire. So here I am, borrowing $100 from my sister, and the very next day everything goes to shit for her on her car. So yea, I feel like shit. No matter how hard we try, we just can't catch a break.