Today.. no title. I don't even know how to sum up what I feel right now.
Well, on second thought, yes I do. Shit. That's how I am feeling today.
About a year ago, Paul and I ran into some hard times and found ourselves getting a "Cash Advance" from a local payday place. They have been good to us, and it kept our electric from getting shut off at the time. The downfall however is that we are living paycheck to paycheck and haven't been able to pull ourselves away from them yet. We plan to use income tax this year to do just that. But unfortunately Paul's work schedule this week (he worked on Friday) threw us off. On Thursday we went and paid them back, and normally Friday would have been the day we went and borrowed the money again. But since he was working, we planned to go Saturday. As normal, we paid our bills with checks, and thought everything was okay. Saturday, we laid around the house. All day. Yes. We forgot to go borrow the money again. And yes. It was a holiday weekend. Closed on Sunday, closed on Monday, Paul worked a double.. not home till Wednesday. Checks? Bounced. Overdrawn. Can't catch a break. Blah.
And of course, because we are living paycheck to paycheck, we had no extra money in the bank. So I had to borrow money from my younger sister to cover the overdraft fees, so the checks would go through on Wednesday after we got all the money in bank. I felt like shit for even having to ask my sister. I'm 25 years old, a mother, a wife. I should have my shit together. But nooooo.. I don't. And what's worse? Today!
When my sister dropped the money off to me to borrow she asked me if her car sounded normal. I told her it sounded to me like she needed some oil but to bring it by today and Paul would check it out for her. I tell you no lie.. Paul pulled the oil dipstick out and the dipstick sleeve came right out with it. And no. It wouldn't just go back on. It was broken. He spent 4 1/2 hours trying to fix this thing for her, and in the process we found a huge slice in her front tire. So here I am, borrowing $100 from my sister, and the very next day everything goes to shit for her on her car. So yea, I feel like shit. No matter how hard we try, we just can't catch a break.
September 09, 2009
September 07, 2009
She's Baaaacccck!
Ahh, the daily rants of the infamous Callie shall return.
I have been MIA for the past couple of months. I know I had made myself goals, and planned to stick with them.. and I'll be the first to admit.. I failed. Horribly! But that's ok. It's a new month, and I'm determined to be a new me.
First on the list? This blog. This morning I created a whole new header, and even changed the name up. No longer will I be a 'beautiful DISASTER'. Instead, I will simply be "Scraps Of Me!". Personally I feel it fits be better. And the bright colors are more me too. I'm not a dark and timid person like my last layout made me appear. This time around, I plan on sticking with this blog. Promise.
Second - Daily To Do Lists. Yes, I'm doing them. I LOVE lists... but... well... I never follow them. I usually end up sticking something else on top of them, or forgetting them when I leave for the store. I spend a good amount of my time - when I'm not tending to the kids or hubby - at my computer. It is my escape zone. And with a hot pink post it slapped to my monitor.. you can't really miss it. There are 2 things on this list that will be there daily.. Blog & Exercise. Now only if I could find the umph to exercise.
Third - Exercise is a must. I keep telling myself I am going to do this. That I need to drink more water, eat better, etc. But in all honesty - I really need to stop slacking and step up to the plate. I always swore to myself that I would never let myself become the weight I am now. And I'm here. I cannot stand to look at myself in the mirror - I get disgusted. Pictures? I get soo mad that there are hardly any pictures taken of me with my kids and family because I'm usually the one taking all the photos.. but at the same time - I don't let anyone else take pictures of me because I'm so self-conscious about my appearance. I printed myself out a chart so I can track my measurements, weight, and water/fat percentages. Yesterday I did all the measuring work, and I will continue them once a week. I have made myself a plan to exercise Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday each week. Paul and I are also going to start walking/jogging together every morning.
Fourth - my scrapbooking and paper crafts. I miss working on them, but it is just such a pain to drag everything out to work on something, and then have to put everything back later. We live in a small 2 bedroom apartment, so there really isn't much room for me to leave my scrapbook area out. We are trying to buy our first house here within the next 2 months or so, and then I will finally have my own scrapbook room!! woot! But until then, I have decided to spend most of my scrapbooking time doing digital scrapbooking. This is a new adventure for me, so I am gradually learning new things daily!
Well, I am off to get lost on Pogo!! Feels good to be back in blogger world!
I have been MIA for the past couple of months. I know I had made myself goals, and planned to stick with them.. and I'll be the first to admit.. I failed. Horribly! But that's ok. It's a new month, and I'm determined to be a new me.
First on the list? This blog. This morning I created a whole new header, and even changed the name up. No longer will I be a 'beautiful DISASTER'. Instead, I will simply be "Scraps Of Me!". Personally I feel it fits be better. And the bright colors are more me too. I'm not a dark and timid person like my last layout made me appear. This time around, I plan on sticking with this blog. Promise.
Second - Daily To Do Lists. Yes, I'm doing them. I LOVE lists... but... well... I never follow them. I usually end up sticking something else on top of them, or forgetting them when I leave for the store. I spend a good amount of my time - when I'm not tending to the kids or hubby - at my computer. It is my escape zone. And with a hot pink post it slapped to my monitor.. you can't really miss it. There are 2 things on this list that will be there daily.. Blog & Exercise. Now only if I could find the umph to exercise.
Third - Exercise is a must. I keep telling myself I am going to do this. That I need to drink more water, eat better, etc. But in all honesty - I really need to stop slacking and step up to the plate. I always swore to myself that I would never let myself become the weight I am now. And I'm here. I cannot stand to look at myself in the mirror - I get disgusted. Pictures? I get soo mad that there are hardly any pictures taken of me with my kids and family because I'm usually the one taking all the photos.. but at the same time - I don't let anyone else take pictures of me because I'm so self-conscious about my appearance. I printed myself out a chart so I can track my measurements, weight, and water/fat percentages. Yesterday I did all the measuring work, and I will continue them once a week. I have made myself a plan to exercise Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday each week. Paul and I are also going to start walking/jogging together every morning.
Fourth - my scrapbooking and paper crafts. I miss working on them, but it is just such a pain to drag everything out to work on something, and then have to put everything back later. We live in a small 2 bedroom apartment, so there really isn't much room for me to leave my scrapbook area out. We are trying to buy our first house here within the next 2 months or so, and then I will finally have my own scrapbook room!! woot! But until then, I have decided to spend most of my scrapbooking time doing digital scrapbooking. This is a new adventure for me, so I am gradually learning new things daily!
Well, I am off to get lost on Pogo!! Feels good to be back in blogger world!
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